Monday Musings: Mind-reader

Mind-reader I’m not.
Heck, half the time I don’t know
what’s on my own heart.

Does that make sense? Not knowing what’s on your own heart, that is. Have you ever had so many things pressing in on you at once that you don’t even really know where to begin to think it through, much less pray about it? That’s where I’m at right now.

Writing Wednesday: Am I a feminist?

There are a few words and phrases in the American vernacular of which I am immediately skeptical, and feminism is one of them. I am a working mother who used to feel like the odd-[wo]man-out at my old church, surrounded by SAHMs — most of whom also home-schooled. I felt like my life was under a microscope. They never came right out and challenged me about my choice (obligation, need, whatev) to work outside the home, and to their credit, they were delightful ladies, so perhaps the pressure was self-imposed. At any rate, I never really felt like I fit in.

I took the minimum 6 weeks off with each of my childbirths, for the sole reason that I did not have enough vacation time accumulated to take more. In two of the three cases, I took leave without pay just to make it 6 weeks. So, other than brief maternity leave, I’ve never known what it is like to be a SAHM.

Am I a feminist because I work outside the home? I’m not sure about the answer to that. Actually, I’ve always assumed that I was not a feminist because of two main reasons: a) I am opposed to abortion, and b) I support women who elect not to work outside the home (provided it is their choice to do so and not imposed upon them). Regardless of whether the woman works a regular job or not, however, I do believe that men should be household helpers and know how to (and be actively willing to) change a diaper and cook a meal. Am I a feminist because I believe that men should pull their weight around the house? Perhaps, but I don’t know.

So, in an effort to challenge myself and broaden my perspective, I’m planning to write one of my term papers on the feminist ideology. There are no shortages of articles on the topic, so I’m going to look at feminism from the lens of Thomas L. Friedman’s “flat world” model. The World is Flat addresses the rapid technological changes that are “flattening” the globe, in a virtual sense.

I have only a vague outline right now, but I’m thinking of three sections:

  1. Women as breadwinners (how globalization is opening doors to women in poverty)
  2. Women as global leaders (exploring technology and political involvement)
  3. Women as change agents (looking at human rights, social justice, etc.)

We’ll see where it goes from there, but that’s my starting point. I’ll be sure to write another post when I figure out whether or not I’m a feminist. 😉

Monday Musings: Football!

It’s football season!
Love cheering on my Bears, but …
more fun when they win!

I gave the boys a treat by ordering pizza delivered to the house this weekend (Ah, the little things that get kids excited! LOL) while we watched the Baylor/Kansas State Big 12 opener. The game was not LOL … it was boohoo. We cheered our hearts out, though! We screamed and jumped up and down in the living room when Kendall Wright caught that un-freaking-believable touchdown pass, and we wanted to cry when the better-than-his-video-game-self Robert Griffin III (who had more touchdowns than incompletions and is a contender for the Heisman!!) threw his very first intercepted pass of the season, which gave K-State the ball and ended our hopes of winning the game. RG3 was being tackled when he threw the ball, which knocked his arm askew, but alas, it was still intercepted, and we still lost by one point.

All that is to say, it was still a fun time of memory-making and merry-making as we splurged by eating in the living room and enjoyed watching the game together.

Writing Wednesday: Dissertation brainstorming

I’ve been tossing around some ideas since the spring term about research adventures that might help me narrow down my dissertation topic. Unfortunately, academia moves at the speed of molasses sometimes, and delays that are out of my control have caused my side project to come to a halt. I am still hopeful that we’ll finish the paper eventually, but right now it’s on Pause.

I need to begin seriously paring down my ideas and formulating a dissertation topic. The problem is that I have too many interests! I am curious about the far-reaching impact of philanthropy, but my first foray into the subject didn’t provide the definitive results that I was hoping for. I was trying to see if private philanthropy played a role in driving public funding, but the example I used (Carnegie funding for U.S. libraries) was too disjointed to make a real connection. (Carnegie funding dried up, for the most part, in the early 1900s/teens, but federal funding didn’t begin until decades later, so it’s hard to say whether the former truly influenced the latter.)

I am interested in forecasting techniques and applying models from other disciplines (management, communication studies, etc.) to philanthropy — specifically, charitable giving in synthetic environments. I believe that we are on the cutting-edge of some really spectacular advances in social media types of technology, and philanthropy plays a role in that. It’s an under-researched area — which is challenging, on one hand, because there is little foundation, but it’s exciting, on the other hand, to think of playing a part in laying that foundation!

Monday Musings: It’s just a crush

Spell “chrysanthemum.”
Gilbert Blythe, do you need a
personal tutor?

I wanted to be Anne of Green Gables when I was younger. Not only did she have freckles and loved to write like I did, but also she had wild, red hair and lived on Prince Edward Island — a place I have yet to visit, but it would be on my bucket list, if I ever wrote one. Personality-wise, I more closely resembled her “bosom friend,” Diana, but secretly I wanted to be Anne. I was also infatuated with Gilbert Blythe. I even vied for “Gil” as one of our boys’ names, but it was vetoed.

Is there a fictional character you once had a crush on?

Writing Wednesday: Finding time

I’m starting to feel the crunch of the semester this week. I have a mid-term exam next week that consists of nine essay questions with a 2.5-hr window in which to write/type. (The test is timed, and there is no grace to pause or restart.)

In fact, I’m using a vacation day to catch up on reading and prep for the exam. My evenings are ok for reading and brief assignments, but sometimes I have to carve out a few hours to really focus. If I can’t do that on a weekend, then I am thankful that I have vacation time to use. Some vacation, eh? Ha!

As soon as that exam is finished, I have two term papers to write. One of them is 20-30 pages, and from what I know of that prof, I should probably err on the 30 end. Oi vey. I have begun some preliminary research for the term papers, but my first priority is to knock out the exam. The prof gave some general topics that we need to be mindful of, so I am going to take that as a hint and write up some generic paragraph prompts to help the essays go more smoothly during crunch time.

Prayers for clarity of mind and time to focus are much appreciated!

Aww, shucks – thanks for the Versatile Blogger Award!

Thanks 1,000,000 to SueBE at One Writer’s Journey, who just awarded me a Versatile Blogger Award. I’m humbled and honored to know that someone besides my mom and BFF read my posts. 😉  Be sure to visit SueBE’s site for writing tips, tricks & reviews!

The rules for accepting the award are as follows:

  1. Thank the person who gave you the award and link back to them in your post (did that above).
  2. Share 7 things about yourself.
  3. Pass this Award along to 15 recently discovered blogs and let them know about it (will get to that asap).

Now for 7 things about myself (that you may not already know from reading my blog):

  1. I can leg press 735 lbs.
  2. I once killed a cactus but have since learned to enjoy gardening (now that the boys are interested in growing things).
  3. I’ve lived on three continents.
  4. I have yet to finish The Lord of the Rings trilogy (but it’s on my must-read list).
  5. I once met author John Grisham at a literacy fundraising event. He signed my book – squee!
  6. When I have nightmares of being chased, I always end up flying away by swimming through the air … if I have to go really fast, then I roll over and do the backstroke.
  7. I held (still hold? idk) the community swim team record for backstroke. 🙂

Well, that’s a bit about me. I’ll work on the recommendations and include them in another post later. Thanks again, SueBE!

Writing Wednesday: Food scarcity

I loathe group projects. I’ve never liked them. I cried in the 6th grade when my English teacher made us self-select into groups, and my friends excluded me from their pairings, so I had to work with a BOY. (Oh, the drama.)

If I ever do become a professor one of these days, I will not assign group projects outside of the classroom unless absolutely necessary. I do think collaboration is a useful teaching tool, but when it comes to putting pen to paper (or fingers to keyboard), I think individual work is better.

All that is to say, my graduate professors are keen on group work. It would be different, perhaps, if we were all on-site and had the opportunity to meet at the library, etc., but we are scattered all around the country in different time zones, with different work schedules and home lives. It’s quite frustrating to try to coordinate who does what, when, how, etc. I am thankful that I’m not the team leader this go-round, but still — everyone’s input is necessary, and when I’m away from my laptop for a few hours, then I’m behind on the discussion and feel like I haven’t pulled my weight.

We did manage to finish a group policy paper on food scarcity in the U.S. this week, complete with proposed solutions and a timetable. The ironic piece of this problematic puzzle is that there is actually enough food produced in the world to feed everyone! There are so many interlocking factors that muddy the waters on how to actually get food to people who need it. Delving into this issue makes me appreciate my first-world problems like the grocery mega-store not having enough sugar-free bottled drinks for my kids’ school lunches. Don’t they know I need to buy at least 6 packages at a time?! 😉

Monday Musings: Not feeling poetic

I don’t feel very
poetic at the moment.
‘Wrote one anyway.

I wish I had copies of some of the poems I wrote back in high school and college. I tended to write during emotional highs and lows, so my poems were either sappy and optimistic or full of brokenhearted teen angst. I guess the same still holds true; I tend to write when I need an outlet for stress or when I’m feeling particularly grateful. I started Monday Musings to make myself write, whether I felt like it or not. I guess today is a “not” day. 😉

Monday Musings: Wine

Who knew, Australia?
You are my new favorite
grape-growing country!

I came to two conclusions this weekend: 1) There’s really something to be said about the whole “vintage” thing — older wines simply taste better; and, 2) Australia makes some really good wine! I’ve sampled two bottles thus far — a 2005 Cooralook Mornington Peninsula Pinot Noir and a 2006 Tatachilla McLaren Vale Cabernet Sauvignon/Shriaz blend. They are both worth writing home about. I would go so far as to say that the Cooralook rivals my beloved [German] Peter Brum Pinot Noir … not necessarily better than Peter, but certainly good enough to compete.